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I'm really stressed and distressed lately. The blood's boiling inside me. My head is a mess. I mean, I could give it all up and walk out of Alternative Youth Care when I turn 18, or I could tough it out for 3 more months after I turn 18 and possibly drift away from the close friends I've made in Kalispell... only to return home. If I left at 18 I would continue to be with my friends in Montana and also have a way to fly home. But that would mean throwing out 7 months of AYC and 9 months of treatment! FUCK. That's so irrational.

I also need to get off this strattera bullshit. It makes me feel sexually docile. No joking around... it's fucked up.

My grades are ok. That isn't enough to make me feel better, though. Oh well, hopefully this will pass. Life has it's ups and downs, I suppose.

I miss everyone.